the lonely campfire..

this post is not sopposed to hurt anybody...the last resort i opt whn i feel damn lonely and not cared for is my blog..so just speaking to this blank space....the whhole exam thing is over,god knows wat happened..mom stayed all the while in vizag to make sure i do well in exams but in vain..we guys planned a getaway trip to somewhere near paapikondalu...ended up in same old araku..5 of us...sushanth..nimi..sneha...and ram..

the whole trip was supposed to be for sheer fun...alas...nnot for me i guess...not puttinn in all the trip details...this is abt this campfire ram planned and worked out...and the wierd thoughts runnin in my mind..
the place was serene...very lonely..with trees as high as 6 storey buildings...and stars above em...abandoned houses and the dark roads into the woods...the only lonely people there:me and my innerself...me,cos some one who invited me to the trip said something to me which she shouldnt have said..and my innerself,cos it talks only when i feel lonely...four of em were sittin there talking ,making fun....i was walking into dark woods...donno why i was doin that actually ...maybe to runaway from the fact that i was feelin lonely with the company at that moment...with sparks from the fire flyin high,my thoughts went wanderin with em...

2 things..one why do i feel like an idiot when everyone else in in good mood?two,who the hell cares if u felt that way?i was always thbe second person ...watever...the thing is when a person cares so much .....to be cont...

THE ROAD NOT TAKEN

ROBERT FROST
Two roads diverged in a yellow wood,
And sorry I could not travel both
And be one traveler, long I stood
And looked down one as far as I could
To where it bent in the undergrowth;

Then took the other, as just as fair,
And having perhaps the better claim,
Because it was grassy and wanted wear;
Though as for that the passing there
Had worn them really about the same,

And both that morning equally lay
In leaves no step had trodden black.
Oh, I kept the first for another day!
Yet knowing how way leads on to way,
I doubted if I should ever come back.

I shall be telling this with a sigh
Somewhere ages and ages hence:
Two roads diverged in a wood, and I—
I took the one less traveled by,
And that has made all the difference.

ULTIMATE FREEDOM

there is a pleasure in the pathless woods;

there is a rapture on  the lonely shore;

there is a society where none intrudes;

by the deep sea and the music in its roar;

i love not man less;but nature more.....

                                                        lord byron..

two years he walks the earth..

no phone,no pool,no pets..

no cigarettes..

ultimate freedom..

an extremist...an aesthetic voyager..

whose room is..

THE ROAD....

                                        alexander supertramp..

have seen the mvi INTO THE WILD recently...philosophical ga unna chala chala nachndi...the road not taken ,into the woods ....william wordsworth..thoreau...jack landon..ooph....too many of english writers ideology...

homo sapiens are made for the society...can we live life for ourselves and not for the society?no rules ...no social commitments...no college ...no money ...only the person..and the nature..atleast for a limited time?

okkade bratakagalada...adi adventure avtundemo appudu?

at times i love being in absolute loneliness...sunrise timelo...city ki dooramga unna beach lo...listening to the roaring sound of waves..in the cool breeze..feeling the warm rays of the rising sun..

okkadne bike meeda ...kaaali road lo ....ekkadiki veltnano telikunda...just the road ...nature...me and my thoughts....

absolute solitude and seclusion....idi chadutunna janalaki veediki pichi anpinchadamlo tappu ledu...

chala try chesuntanu nenu....to judge the better one....loneliness or the opposite...?

kaani eppudu renditiki pedda difference teliyaledu....entha mandi janalalo unna okkadne aypoynattu undochu...okkadne unna chala happy ga andarthonu unnatu kuda undochu....

kontamandi istamina vallatho unnappudu ilanti alochanalu assalu raavu...kaani migilina vaallatho unnappudu?anyways

people say" ultimate happiness lies in sharing it"

but no one ever defined or atlest tried to define

 " ULTIMATE FREEDOM"

wat is it ?where does ultimate freedom lye?in breaking away from the social rules?in the dark loneliness?

best pic ever in my ametuer photography history!!!

friends..

this debate is always prevailing....can a boy and a girl can just be friends?no strings attached,no love stuff getting in the way.....just unconditional ,uncomplicated friendship...
i think its a big yes...this friendships provides us with something that we dont get from the same gender friends or even the love partners...in a way boys love this friendship because they get the emotional support they dont get from their friends...and girls,may be because boys are less bitchy than girls?but these are just my opinions...no offence..
ikkada inko question...if we are happy in this platonic friendship,can we still be dating someone?does hanging out with such emotional support-giving friend become a mistake ?
and if this situation arises,whom should we prefer?friend or date...?
nenu alochinchedi correct ani cheppanu....ala ani wrong kuda kadu...when ur date cant accept a friend of yours be it a girl or a boy ...how can she evr hang out withyou?
considering the romance part,just goin out for a pleasure ride with a date doesnt mean she is emotionally compatible with u..platonic friend is always there for you..be it the emotional support,or the rapo you share....the comfort levels when u hang out...mentally,u feel secure in this kind of friendship than dating or getting into a relation ....rit?

inspired by an editorial and adding my thoughts...sree

new post new post!!!
perspective change ento gani emadya anii optimistic ga alochstna...rojuki oka ride...yash ,me ,kishore and the laxman..full of friends...roking life ....
kani just perspective change cheskunnantha matrana ee changes anni vachesaya?or naku dorkina friends na mind set ni marchesara?
emo kani life bindaas ga undi...yash and kishore chala takkuva time lo manchi friends aypoyaru naku....chala misconceptions undevi vallante naku idivaraku....donno why...donno enti le na chuttu tirge gossip effect adi..i used to wonder abt people around me...esply yash...every other day in my first year...epppudu nenu,ajit and phani gadu nadusthu undetappudo or bandi meda triples velletappudo kanpinchevadu...in a car....tarvata laxman gadu full friend aypoyadu yash ki....couldnt find a reason why he attracts people like that appatlo...kani tanatho tirgina ee chala konni rojulalo ardam ayndi....vadki value iche manshulaki entha value istado...not like many others whom i believed very blindly..
nenu chala takkuvaga matladadaniki alavatupadina manishini...kani antha excitement tho antha energy tho unna manushula madya entho kalam pattaledu matalu nerchukodanki!!!
praises apart...m really happy manchi friends dorkinanduku...and laxman!!!
friend gurinchi intha alochistara!!maybe nenu eku alochistnanu ankunevanni...kani antha chette adi..janalun gurinchi nen alochnche vidhanam entha tappo ardamiyyela chesindi...too much kada...friend ki nene antha time spare cheyyanu...courtesy anukunevanni...ne gurinchi alochinchadam thone start chesa ra the process of changing my way of thinking!!!!all these positive effects are attibuted to u!!!!

its been really long nw!!!almost ten days from the last post kada!!ee delay ki matram reason undi...my trails to make myself busy worked!!went home for the first four days...seen pinku after a really long time...mom was really happy seeing me this time ...donno why...or may be im looking into my mom in a different perspective...idivarku naku homesickness undedi kadu...these days amma oka roju call cheyyakapoina m missing her!!!love you mom...i never payed attention to your words or your thoughts or the love and care u show for me....but seriously m realising things....knowing the priorities...hmmm...
and abt dad...nenu vellina daggarnundi natho matladutuune unnaru...hes now a days giving importance to my thoughts!!ayana maatalu vinte nenu kooda peddodni aypoyanu ane feelin vastndi naku!!intiki pedda koduku,vadiki unde badyatalu ....anii gurtochestay...oka age lo ayana ento ardam kaaka used to hate him...but nw....ardam chesukune koddi ayana entha alochistnaro ma gurnchi and enni sacrifrices chesaro kanipistnay...ma kosam tirigi tirigi spondilitis kooda techkunnaru..andke i always felt...bds lu mbbs lu cheste musalivallu aypoyaka kani sampayinchalem...enni rojulani choostu choostu ayana ala health paadu cheskuntunte undagalanu?eppatiki settle avtano eppatiki ayanaki rest istano....

naku emadya vere vallla kanna na family ee baga nachestondi...thanks to the friend of mine who changed my perspective!!!
evaru unna lekapoina...evaru mana gurinchi alochnchina alochnchakapoina...24hrs mana gurunche alochstu mana gurnche pani chestu valla chinni chinni korikalanu kooda lit teseskune parents gurnchi chala takkuva alochstam kada manam!!!from nw on my first preference always goes to my parents and my family...
tinku...intakanna manchi tammudu dorakademo naaku..love you loads ra....station lo na gurnchi 1 hr wait chesadu recieve cheskodanki...intiki vellina daggarnundi anni daggarundi chooskunnadu edo vadu naku elder brother laga...eppudu na venakale tirugutu...nenu chese vedava panulaku amma daggara covering istu...chala pichodu....vadiki love cheydam tappa hate cheydam radu....engg join ayyadu...csc....hope it does good to him....ayina vadikenti le....he rocks..

hmm intinundi vachestunappudu telustundi intlovalu entha alochstaro mana gurinchi....nenu pandi laga padukunte amma inka ammamma poddunnundi specific ga nakosam evo vantalu chestnaru....dad emo din go out for me that day..may be he wanted to spend time with his first son!!!
adi matter...coll as usual...vizag vachesa..introvert ,pessimist,psycho ....ivi na gurinchi nenu anukunedi...kani optimistic ga alochiddam ankuntna ika nundi....every one around me is nicer if i look into them in a nicer perspective...kada!!!